Ridiculous.

I still feel ridiculous. The scale says 118 but it should say 140...I know it. I hate it. Why does it tell me lies? I know its not lying. But my body screams...FAT ASS!

Eating

Sucks

Start of something AMAZING...I hope.

Not sure how to start...it has been quite a long time since I have blogged and I am a bit rusty.

I know there are a lot of blogs out there about eating disorders pro or not. I know there are a lot of blogs out there about finding yourself and making a better life blah blah blah etc. I am also sure this blog won't be much different then those but who knows.
Okay...so I am Cassie or some people call me Cass and some people call me Cass Pea (have no idea why). I am 21 years old and I have had anorexia for a little over a year now. Currently I am kinda being forced to recover but starting August 25th that will no longer be the case... :)
Until I am able to restrict my diet I plan on purging my material items. I have a lot of crap that I don't need and I need to simplify my life.

Oh jeeze this is just sounding silly. Basically I feel fat and for the next month I am going to distract myself from that. After that I am going to be able to realyl focus on my body and self. This will be a blog of that journey.

Cass.Pea